Your lissome regrets
Harbour no sails
As I groom you to know
I am not equal to your love
I sustain
You envelope
Me in your lusting
For More.
I wonder at my name
Prince William of Brit
For never shall I know
How you found me
Alone as a knave
Now my wish has been
Granted. I have found
A Tommy but you are
The swell I have been
Swimming for.
Lift me up so I surf
The Kalahari again
Resist not
Dear Kate
You are the timely
Saint of my
Longing. B
BCDFM
COPYRIGHT Bruce E Saunders 2020
There is no time like the present
No time to call me the better man
I love you all but still you sin
You smoke like Dirk but hold your fin
Like an animal
You do not win
In absence of glory you do not tell
The winner is evil the sky the begin
Of pleasure inperilled
The arc of bin laden
Does not finish here
But there where you win
The aimless start of war can be
The anywhere else for you do not begin
The end does start to make it sin
You do not know where I cannot simply
Open your eyes to the title track
Of the lp
I love to play
10 to 1
Is not the time
It opens doors
Where love begins
I di not know where you
Cannot sin
Begin the where
When no one sins
Where your difference on the brow
And hold your crooked man
On the sow
Soo-ee, soo-ee
I love you more
Than pigs do in your final hour
Do not know me when
You power
I know you not
And love you nire.
Pyre is work I do not pleasance
Take the bow
The corner presence
Is open now
I cannot hold
You again.
Bcdfn.
Copyright Bruce E Saunders 2020
I have my ducks lined up and I shall be going for a second opinion.
Here is a short description of what I have experienced:
Here is a brief chronology of events. I try to be concise and we are talking about 13 years of events here, so obviously I cannot include everything.
So. I was okay and then I was not okay. I suffered what I know now to be PTSD and then trauma induced psychosis developed. Strange dreams, shock and stress. I was angry which I internalised, and became depressed. At the time I thought little of psychiatry and knew less.
The trauma continued on campus as I became suspicious of everyone as a possible source of my pain. I went to see the campus psychiatrist Bill Bruce-Jones who said I was just depressed. I told him about the assault. I know that. But his file notes are not amongst the notes I got from Blackberry Hill, nor those of the other campus psychiatrist. Why not?
The Department of Mechanical Engineering paid for me to go to the Priory in Bristol and there the psychiatrist said I was okay. No problems. Again, his notes are not present. Why not? This was about 18 months into my PhD.
I went through my transfer and although I had done original work, my assessor said MPhil. So I worked out how much money I had and how much I owed and cancelled my registration and I went down to town. Then I asked to see someone on campus. I wanted to talk. And there was a code of silence which has not been broken since. Not a word. I was forbidden to go onto campus so that left me only e-mails to communicate with. I openly declared a dispute with the University and set about to irritate them as much as possible in order to get my day in court and question selected individuals under oath. But they refused to rise and take my challenge. So I continued e-mailing, whilst putting myself through bankruptcy. I could not find a job and I was nearly homeless. Stress therefore continued to mount as did my hate for the Campus academics who were refusing to negotiate. It would seem that the campus psychiatrist then referred my “case” to the RUH and I had a visit from Pete Baran. (No notes) I was detained against my will at the RUH just as I was planning to fly home and see my dying father who was plainly ill. I was placed in the secure unit for 2 months. Dr Danyte said I had schizophrenia and no insight. I was protesting that I did not and that I was in dispute with the University. To know avail. Trauma Induced psychosis and PTSD. Not schizophrenia, I repeat.
The came my first appeal. Solicitor – Carla Whale nee Hoddinott of Withy-King. She did not offer to show me the notes which you have before you. Slander and God knows what else. But my rights were abused. Malpractise. Nonetheless I won the appeal and was released. Danyte made her diagnosis at a distance of 1 kilometer. She did not discuss it with me nor the symptoms.
That was the beginning of a diagnosis which has been false and pursued me for the last 13 years.
I got the same treatment from Amy Roberts, of Markhams. No sight of my medical file. Deprivation of rights.
Where are the notes from the Bristol hospital called the Priory?
Where are Bill Bruce-Jones’ notes?
Where are the Bath University psychiatrist’s notes?
Anger at my treatment = detention, justifiable depression = anger, expression of which is not illegal but because of my diagnosis I was classified as dangerous to the community. Multiple detentions. Four or more psychiatrists have misdiagnosed me now. Two at Swan hospitals, and three at the RUH to start with.
I met Dr Nick Smith, psychiatrist who said he didn’t think I had schizophrenia at all because I was too old and because I lacked the classic symptoms such as broken speech and I was too old. He taught me about trauma induced psychosis. I understood.
Marlowe took over from Danyte and continued the trend ignoring everything I said and ignoring the basic contradiction in symptoms.
And so on. All the while the elusive notes from the Priory have disappeared, and the false assessment has hung around my neck. Emotionally, not psychiatrically, I became very upset. Periodically I was put in hospital. I kept a blog and named names. It is within my rights…I checked with WordPress. If anyone doesn’t like it they have the option of doing the same. To me. Yet I was put in hospital repeatedly.
End of.
I want a full assessment by an impartial person. I am going to proceed with the case myself if a solicitor does not assist, using the Freedom of Information Act and other Statutes. That is all you need to know for the assessment.
I have included a sampling of false allegations made against me, from the first 3 inches of my medical file. Slander and worse. It is the false foundation upon which Danyte built her case.
Those are the facts and I want to see, in writing, the basis for your assessment, if any. Because I have experience. And an advocate shall be present.
We know that Danyte based her assessment upon a lot of lies and false allegations. Slander. From her notes. Her incomplete notes. This brings us up to 2007.
Copyright 2016 Bruce E Saunders
As you may know by now – I was assaulted badly by 6 men about 13 years ago now.
This gave rise to trauma induced psychosis
A fact that should be clear to you from some of my writing.
It is an event that I am still not without hope of resolving.
I tend to put things online when I am in fear of being detained by the Thought Police.
Yours
Bioman
PS – This post will disappear presently – I’ll keep you informaed as obviously I am still free!
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